Wednesday night...

It's Wednesday night. What does that normally mean for you? For me, I have a show that I typically watch - Criminal Minds. It's interesting due to its capture of the profiling aspect of FBI taskforces. Sometimes I like to play psychologist so that's probably why I became intrigued with this show. *shrug* Why do people want to excel in certain areas - medicine, journalism, psychology, research, literature, cinema, theater, music? What is their motivation? Of course, there's the obvious answer - it's their interest, their obsession. But what about those who do not live or breathe their career? They just excel. Why? I mean, why do we humans want to do better? What is that urge, I mean besides evolution? *shrug*

Alright, so these questions are not coming from nowhere. For a long time, I have been trying to figure out what I am trying to do with my life? Revisiting my path to graduate school. How did I get here? Was it just a chain of serendipitous incidents? Of course not. There had to have been conscious decisions mixed in. I don't think I ever had a clear idea of where I want to go in life. THAT is the problem. I still have no idea where I want to go. I watch every one in my lab go about their business - some just using this experience as a stepping stone in their path, some are realistic about their time here and want to soak up as much knowledge as they can, and some are there for the ride until they find out that they really belong there or that they do not.

By the way, I've lost track of my thoughts. So that's all for now.
*shrug*